As I wander around the frozen lake, I ponder if there is any difference between solitude and isolation as they both honour alone time. But then, what is time when duration of events is unknown?
I try to make sense of time by looking at changes, not of the world but of self, and I identify a subtle selfish streak. I have somewhat changed. Because nowadays, I’m not afraid to admit that in order to keep afloat I can only take care of myself and loved ones, before I expend myself to the world.
Even loved ones have to ask, I decide as I recall that “Sometimes people can only help us when we ask for that help…if we try to keep ourselves all tightly wrapped together, there’s no space for someone to step in and assist us.”
I walk back home energized not because I have figured out the difference between solitude and isolation. But because I witnessed a miracle, as the lake started to melt, water is still wet.