On Moving Away From & Towards

Just as 2022 was coming to a close, I wrote: whatever is beautiful and brings you joy, pursue it! I intend to do this, myself. Hence, my word for 2023 is play. But why play? I need recreation like a fish needs water.

In rare moments of deep play, we can lay aside our sense of self, shed time’s continuum, ignore pain, and sit quietly in the absolute present, watching the world’s ordinary miracles. No mind or heart hobbles. No analyzing or explaining. No questing for logic. No promises… One is completely open to whatever drama may unfold.” Diane Ackerman

For me, playing is all about nourishing body, mind and soul. Today, I’m sharing my gentle intentions to cultivate more space and time for play.

What I’m moving away from?

  • Hustle Culture

Last year, while I was battling health challenges, worried about my loved ones’ health, processing the loss, writing and publishing a book, I was also working on a thesis project. To say I “killed the goose…” is an understatement! I’ve been revisiting my Big Why and readjusting accordingly, ever since. I’ll be leaning to the less is more approach.

  • Churning Content for the Machine

I can assure you, I’m not quitting blogging. This blog remains my most preferred way of building and nurturing genuine relationships online. However, I’m reducing the amount of content I publish here and time dedicated to blogging. So, I’ll publish posts intermittently or aiming for at least one post per month. This won’t impress search engines, that’s for sure!

  • ‘Reality Show’

For a long time, I deluded myself into thinking I was on Facebook to connect with family and friends. But these special people know where to find me, if they wish to. Finally, I’ve pulled the plug. As for Instagram, I’m proceeding with great caution.

  • One-sided Relationships

That brings me to one-sided relationships. How do you know you are in a such relationship? The list is long. But for one, you are always initiating contact. I’m quitting one-sided relationships, periodt.

What I’m moving towards?

  • Reading More Books

Isn’t that one reason we creatives blog? For art lovers to learn about our works and ultimately buy. That’s why I’m reading more books than blogs, this year. So, to members of my different communities, if you have a book out there (or upcoming) about a topic that interests me and in a genre I enjoy, it’s likely that I’ll read it.

  • Writing More Books

I’m returning to the story in my heart I’ve been trying to tell for years, without success. It’s reached a critical point; characters are causing a riot. They want to be released from the confines of my desk drawer. I know this doesn’t sound like playing, more so that fiction doesn’t come naturally to me. But believe me, I enjoy talking to my characters. 🙂 Besides, committing to this long project, among others, will help me resist shiny objects and writing for instant gratification.

  • Exploring Other Forms of Storytelling

I can write to share stories and communicate ideas. But I can also share stories using different mediums. Hence, I’m continuing to explore and develop other (visual) forms of storytelling.

Alright, I stop here. And as usual I’d like hear from you. What changes are you making to do things that bring you joy, this year? Please do tell!

PS. I took the feature image (street mural) in Knysna, South Africa. Unfortunately, I don’t know who the artist/creator of this work is.

On Going Deep in 2022: A Reflection

Happy New Year, Good People! I hope 2023 started well for you as it did for me. Before moving forward with this year’s plan, I’d like to take stock of the past year by revisiting my going deeper, not wider exercise in 2022, and also share lessons relearned.

When I settled for my word depth, last year, I did not know just how deep I’d end up going. And it was certainly not the kind of depth I had in mind. If you’re a regular reader of this blog or have read my recent collection, The Sheltering, you know those details already. At the risk of repeating myself, here are a few lessons I relearned last year:

Self-awareness

Self-awareness has been the biggest lesson. I realised that creating space and time often to connect with myself is the greatest act of self-love. Because it means I allow myself to sit with my emotions, seek my truth or listen to answers already within me, appreciate and accept all of me, and be enough.

“Don’t be ashamed to weep; ’tis right to grieve.”

I fully agree with Brian Jacques’ quote above. But I’ll say this: even real and personal experiences can feel performative and jarring on social media. I had written a whole post about reasons I won’t grieve in public. But it needed to be more than a blog post. Anyway, I find private rituals as equally important in processing grief.

Making my art no matter what

If you are an artist, you need to make your art. That’s not an overstatement—it’s a fact; if you stop doing your creative work, your quality of life is diminished.” Beth Pickens

Some still ask what is the point of poetry. Well, I’m not here to convince you about the purpose of writing poetry. I know what it does for me. Last year, I was in overdrive dealing with a number of things that were very taxing emotionally and mentally. I leaned heavily into poetry during those desperately times. The opposite would have been a black hole. I’m not sure if I’d have been able to climb out of it without making art. By the way, the book pictured below is another great book for art makers.

Make Your Art No Matter What by Beth Pickens (image courtesy of Amazon)

Being my own support system

I’ve also learnt that when someone tells me I am strong, lucky or whatever double-edge sword word they use, they are actually saying I cannot rely on them for emotional support. But they expect that support from me. So, being my own support system has meant continuing to remove all the people and things that bring me down. I can tell you, I’m already feeling less resentful.

Social support system

Someone once said, when you are buried deep under the rubble, you don’t care about the colour of the hand that pulls you out. It turned out to be my chosen family (my friends) who offered me greatest support in my time of need. Also acquaintances whom I would have never thought of reaching out to, surprised and touched me with their generosity. This is to say, authentic friendships are important in one’s life.

Being a better listener

I’ve written before about how I pride myself on being a good listener, of both what is said and unsaid. I had recommended this book before, You’re Not listening: What You’re Missing and Why It Matters, because I find it to be very informative. Anyway, I still fall short when it comes to active listening. There are times I could have done better but I just didn’t have the bandwidth.

Depth

Depth, itself, is a deep word. It turned out that my going deep had nothing to do with creative and professional goals, even though I did achieve some. Rather, my year of depth had everything to do with the depth of human character, reassessing relationships and personal growth.

Snowmobiling in Finnish wilderness

PS. In the next post, publishing on Sunday, 22nd Jan, I’ll share my word for 2023, what I’m moving away from and towards.

A Way of Looking at Beauty

It is beauty itself that you are here.
The small beating in your heart keeps
the world alive. Therefore, do not ask
if it was a good year or a bad year.
Do not torment yourself with society’s
definition of success. You are success.

It is beauty itself that you can dance
in the rain, for storms are part of life.
Love abundantly. Live with an open
heart, and fill yourself with gratitude.
Timelessness of joy, an overflowing
stream of love in its many forms.

It is beauty itself that you can feel.
Play, fall, pick yourself up and learn.
Embrace impermanence of seasons
and make each day count. For,
deserving has nothing to do with it.
Everything is as it should be.

Wishing you and yours Happy Holidays! ♥♥♥

PS. While I’ll continue to read the blogs, I won’t be publishing any new content during the holidays. I hope to continue journeying with you in the New Year. Otherwise, I’m continuing my #decemberreflections2022 on Instagram. See you around!